Reviewed by Lady H
*****5 Brilliant, Amazing, Sizzling, Smoking Hot, Powerful, Deliciously Sexy, Emotional, Intense, Heart-Breaking, Fuck-tas-tic & Remylicious Stars!!!!!
“You go after something because you want it bad enough to expend every one of your efforts to get it and will even risk some losses as you chase after it.” ~ Brooke
“I don’t want to be yours. I want to be your fucking REAL.” ~ Remy
OMG! OMG! OMG! Holy Shitballs!! Where do I begin? How about smacking myself on the head big fucking time why it took me so long to read this book? It’s been sitting on my to-be-read list since April 9th! Almost 6 months!!!! SMACK! OUCH! Ok…no point beating myself up about it, time lost is what I can’t get back but at least I finally read it and…I fucking LOVE it!
Katy, Katy, Katy, my beloved Katy. What an amazing debut novel. The story is so beautiful, intriguing and intense yet did not fail to give me the fuzziness and warmth in my heart. Thank you for giving us Remington ‘Remy’ Tate. Now, I totally understand what all the fuss is about Remy, through the famous social network we all know as Facebook. As of today, I have 2 sexy and gorgeous fighter book boyfriends to swoon over and worthy of my affection. Both unique in their own way. I love them both.
“Ladies and gentlemen, and noooww…the moment you’ve all been waiting for, the man you’re all here to see. The baddest of the bad, I give you, the one, the only, Remington ‘Riptide’ Tate!”
I have to admit, I have a thing for sexy tatted fighters. Remington Tate, 26 years old was a professional fighter before he started fighting in the Underground League. He was banned for poor conduct which I think was total bullshit. Remy is mesmerizingly perfect, extremely gorgeous, sexier than sin, intense, obsessive and yet sweet in his own adorable way. Did I mention he is unbelievably ripped with an eight-pack that I want to run my tongue over every inch of it? Mmm…okay, enough drooling, back to business. Remy is a man of few words. He expresses his feelings through music.
“You tie me up in knots. I want to play you a thousand different songs so you get a clue of what…I feel inside me…” ~ Remy
Remy had a umm...how do I put it…a past that no child should be put through no matter how broken you are. Remy has Bipolar Disorder. If like me, you have no idea what Bipolar is, I have taken the liberty to do some research and attached a little reading material for you at the end of this review. When his parents found out, they don’t know how to handle it. They did try to help him but not hard enough. You do not abandon your child, lock him up in a psychiatric facility to rot so you can sleep better at night! They left him there until he was old enough to sign himself out. What kind of parents are you?!?! When the tough gets going, let someone else handle your problem? My heart broke when I read that part of the book.
Fighting is all Remy knows, it’s all he’s had that he can control in his life and it’s also what kept his disorder under control. Due to the pure rejection growing up, he distance himself from any kind of relationship because honestly, I personally think he just doesn’t want to hurt anyone or himself, he has enough rejection to last a lifetime. Until one faithful fight night, he met Brooke Dumas, his life will forever be changed and will never be the same again.
Brooke Dumas, 24 years old was once an Olympic hopeful but due to a torn ACL – the anterior cruciate ligament, her dream of getting the gold medal was completely shattered. Since her dream will never be fulfilled, she had to do something else with her career choice. Due to she did not received the help she needed when she tore her ACl, she decided she will become a Sports Rehab Specialist so she can help young athletes make it even if she didn’t. Relationship is complicated so Brooke avoid it at all cost and also she is emotionally unequipped to deal with any of it since she’s still broken up from the fall and at the same time trying to find her way into her new career. Until she met Remington Tate.
“There he is, a woman’s living, breathing fantasy, doing his slow, cocky turn, spiky black hair, darkly tanned chest, dimpled smile-killer smile-all in the package of Remington Tate. He’s perfection itself, and a new surge of hormones sweeps through me as I do what the rest of the crowd does and take in his visual, so blatantly on display in those low riding boxing shorts and so strikingly sexy, he becomes the center of my attention. The center. Of my. World.” ~ Brooke
“I love him He’s not just a star, he’s the whole fucking sky to me. He’s the sun and every planet in this galaxy.” ~ Brooke
Watching a fight at a underground fighting club is the last place you will find Brooke in. But thanks to her best friend Melanie, it’s on this faithful night, Remy and Brooke meet. That moment when they first set their eyes on each other was entranced and intimate. I like when a man knows what he wants and stops at nothing to achieve it.
A little teaser:
The crowd comes alive, and suddenly, I hear an unmistakably hard slam. Resisting the urge to look back at what’s causing the commotion, I round the corner and head straight for the bathroom hall as the speakers flared up again. “Holy cow, that was fast! We have a KO! Yes, ladies and gentlemen! A KO! And in record time, our victor once again, I give you, Riptide! Riptide, who’s now jumping off the ring and — where the hell are you going?”
The crowd goes crazy, calling all the way to the lobby, “Riptide! Riptide!” and then they fall completely quiet, as though something unscripted has just happened.
I wonder about the eerie silence when ponding footsteps echo at my back. A warm hand engulfs mine, and the touch frissons through me as I’m spun around with surprising force.
‘What the…” I gasp in confusion, and then stare into glowing blue eyes. My senses reel out of control. He’s so close, the scent of him tears through me like a shot of adrenaline.
“Your name,” he growls, panting, his eyes wild on mine.
“Brooke what?’ he snaps out, his nostrils flaring.
His animal magnetism is so powerful I think he just took my voice. He’s in my personal space, all over it, absorbing it, absorbing me, taking my oxygen, and I can’t understand the way my heart is beating, the way I stand here, shivering with heat, my entire bidy focused on the exact spot his hand is wrapped around me.
With trembling efforts, I pry my hand free and glance frightfully at Mel, who comes behind him, wide-eyed. “It’s Brooke Dumas,” she says, and then she happily shoots out my cellphone number. To my chagrin.
His lips curl and he meets my gaze. “Brooke Dumas.” He just fucked my name right in front of me. And right in front of Mel.
And as I feel his tongue twist roughly around those two words, his voice sinfully dark, like things you crave to eat but really shouldn’t, desire swells between my legs. His eyes are hot and almost proprietary when he looks at me. I’ve never been stared at like this before.
He steps forward, and his damp hands slides into the nape of my neck. My pulse skitters as he lowers his dark head to set a small, dry kiss on my lips. It feels like he’s marking me.. Like he’s preparing me for something monumental. That could both change and ruin my life.
“Brooke,” he growls softly, meaningfully, against my lips, as he draws back with a smile. “I’m Remington.”
Oh my lord!! See what I mean. A man going after what he wants. I wish some same specimen of Remy would come after asking for my name like that.
With reasons I can’t disclose, more like I don’t want to so you will go read this awesome book, Remy has an agenda, a plan of some sort, instead of trying to pursue a romantic relationship right off the bat with Brooke, he decided to hire her as his personal Sports Rehab Specialist to go on tour with him for 3 months. He make sure she signs a contract and stay the whole 3 months. This is where it starts to get really interesting. I had the same thought where I went huh? Why the hell hire her when obviously he wanted her?! But believe me, he has his reasons and I already know why. This is a beautiful yet intense roller coaster ride that you will be glad to be on. Take the ride and find out if Remy and Brooke are meant to be together. Can Brooke help him with the turmoils that continue to fester inside him? There’s a huge unexpected plot in the story that makes the story so much more interesting that you never want to put down. I seriously highly recommend everyone go read this book.
“I’m so fucking in love with you I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore.” ~ Remy
“You’ll leave me the second it gets too steep, and you’ll leave me with nothing — when I want you like I’ve never wanted anything in my life. You’re all I think about, dream about. I get high and low and it’s all about you now, it’s not even about me anymore. I can’t sleep, can’t think, can’t concentrate worth shit anymore and it’s all because I want to be the fucking ‘one’ for you and as soon as you realized what I am, all I’ll be is a fucking mistake!” ~ Remy
“ How can you be a mistake? Have you seen you? Have you seen what you do to me? You had me at hello, you fucking asshole! You make me want you until it hurts and then you won’t do shit!” ~ Brooke
I love it when an author writes true life occurrences into fiction books. In this case, it’s Bipolar Disorder. Katy Evans, thank you for writing such an amazing story and giving us Remy. I really enjoyed this beautiful yet intense roller coaster ride with Brooke and Remy. It gave me better understanding what Bipolar Disorder is and what kind of damage one can bring. The ending of the story was absolutely beautiful. You truly are amazing and I can’t wait to read MINE and REMY.
Bipolar Disorder: What Is It?
Bipolar disorder, sometimes called manic depression, is a disorienting condition that causes extreme shifts in mood. Like riding a slow-motion roller coaster, patients may spend weeks feeling like they’re on top of the world before plunging into a relentless depression. The length of each high and low varies greatly from person to person. In any given year, bipolar disorder affects more than 2% of American adults.
Depressive Phase Symptoms
Without treatment, a person with bipolar disorder may experience intense episodes of depression. Symptoms include sadness, anxiety, loss of energy, hopelessness, and difficulty concentrating. Patients may lose interest in activities that were once pleasurable. They may gain or lose weight, sleep too much or too little, and contemplate suicide.
Manic Phase Symptoms
During a manic phase, patients tend to feel euphoric and may believe they can accomplish anything. This can result in inflated self-esteem, agitation, reduced need for sleep, being more talkative, being easily distracted, and a sense of racing thoughts. Reckless behaviors, including spending sprees, sexual indiscretions, fast driving, and substance abuse, are common. Having three or more of these symptoms nearly every day for a week may indicate a manic episode.
Bipolar I vs. Bipolar II
People with bipolar I disorder have manic episodes or mixed episodes and often have one or more depressive episodes. People with bipolar II have major depressive episodes with less severe mania; they experience hypomania, a condition that is less intense than mania or lasting less than a week. Patients may seem like the “life of the party” — full of charm and humor. They may feel and function fine, even if family and friends can see the mood swing. However, hypomania can lead to mania or depression.
People with mixed episode experience depression and mania at the same time. This leads to unpredictable behavior, such as sadness while doing a favorite activity or feeling very energetic. It’s more common in people who develop bipolar disorder at a young age, particularly during adolescence. But some estimates suggest up to 70% of bipolar patients experience mixed episodes.
Causes of Bipolar Disorder
Doctors aren’t exactly sure what causes bipolar disorder. A leading theory is that brain chemicals fluctuate abnormally. When levels of certain chemicals become too high, the patient develops mania. When levels drop too low, depression may result.
Bipolar Disorder: Who’s at Risk?
Bipolar disorder affects males and females equally. In most cases, the onset of symptoms is between 15 and 30 years old. People are at higher risk if a family member has been diagnosed, especially if it’s a first degree relative, but doctors don’t think the disorder kicks in based on genetics alone. A stressful event, drug abuse, or other unknown factor may trigger the cycle of ups and downs.
Bipolar Disorder and Daily Life
Bipolar disorder can disrupt your goals at work and at home. In one survey, 88% of patients said the illness took a toll on their careers. The unpredictable mood swings can drive a wedge between patients and their co-workers or loved ones. In particular, the manic phase may scare off friends and family. People with bipolar disorder also have a higher risk of developing anxiety disorders.
Bipolar Disorder and Substance Abuse
About 60% of people with bipolar disorder have trouble with drugs or alcohol. Patients may drink or abuse drugs to relieve the uncomfortable symptoms of their mood swings. This is especially common during the reckless manic phase.
Bipolar Disorder and Suicide
People with bipolar disorder are 10 to 20 times more likely to commit suicide than people without the illness. Warning signs include talking about suicide, putting affairs in order, and inviting death with risky behavior. Anyone who appears suicidal should be taken very seriously.
Diagnosing Bipolar Disorder
A crucial step in diagnosing bipolar disorder is to rule out other possible causes of extreme mood swings. These may include brain infection or other neurological disorders, substance abuse, thyroid problem, HIV, ADHD, side effects of certain medications, or other psychiatric disorders. There is no lab test for bipolar disorder. A psychiatrist usually makes the diagnosis based on a careful history and evaluation of the patient’s mood and other symptoms.
Medications for Bipolar Disorder
Medications are key in helping people with bipolar disorder live stable, productive lives. Mood stabilizers can smooth out the cycle of ups and downs. Patients may also be prescribed antipsychotic drugs and anticonvulsant drugs. Between acute states of mania or depression, patients typically stay on maintenance medication to avoid a relapse.
Talk Therapy for Bipolar Disorder
Talk therapy can help patients stay on medication and cope with their disorder’s impact on work and family life. Cognitive behavioral therapy focuses on changing thoughts and behaviors that accompany mood swings. Interpersonal therapy aims to ease the strain bipolar disorder may place on personal relationships. Social rhythm therapy helps patients develop and maintain daily routines.
Lifestyle Tips for Bipolar Disorder
Establishing firm routines can help manage bipolar disorder. Routines should include sufficient sleep, regular meals, and exercise. Because alcohol and recreational drugs can worsen the symptoms, these should be avoided. Patients should also learn to identify their personal early warning signs of mania and depression. This will allow them to get help before an episode spins out of control.
Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT)
Electroconvulsive therapy can help some people with bipolar disorder. ECT uses an electric current to cause a seizure in the brain. It is one of the fastest ways to ease severe symptoms. ECT is usually a last resort when a patient does not improve with medication or psychotherapy.
Educating Friends and Family
Friends and family may not understand bipolar disorder at first. They may become frustrated with the depressive episodes and frightened by the manic states. If patients make the effort to explain the illness and how it affects them, loved ones may become more compassionate. Having a solid support system can help people with bipolar disorder feel less isolated and more motivated to manage their condition.
When Someone Needs Help
Many people with bipolar disorder don’t realize they have a problem or avoid getting help. If you’re concerned about a friend or family member, here are a few tips for broaching the subject. Point out that millions of Americans have bipolar disorder, and that it is a treatable illness — not a personality flaw. There is a medical explanation for the extreme mood swings, and effective treatments are available.