I wasn’t always in love with Colton Calloway; I was in love with his younger brother, Kyle, first. Kyle was my first one true love, my first in every way. Then, one stormy August night, he died, and the person I was died with him.
Colton didn’t teach me how to live. He didn’t heal the pain. He didn’t make it okay. He taught me how to hurt, how to not be okay, and, eventually, how to let go.
Nell Hawthorne is in love with her life-long best friend, Kyle Calloway. Their young love is invincible and life is full of promise; then one night Kyle dies suddenly in a tragic accident and Nell is forever changed. She meets Kyle’s older brother Colton for the first time at the funeral. They both struggle to move on with life as best they can. Years later, they meet again in New York City, and Colton realizes that Nell has never really gotten over Kyle’s death. She seems to be harboring a deeply rooted pain, a heavy weight of guilt and regret. He knows he shouldn’t get involved, but he can’t help himself. Trust doesn’t come easily for either of them, and they both have demons. Together, they learn the purpose of pain and the meaning of healing, and the importance of forgiveness.
First off, let me say “WOW!”. I think this book is hands down my favorite book that I’ve read so far this year! The book starts out with Nell and Kyle. They grew up together from birth and are only a few days apart from each other in age. They’re always together and everyone assumes that they’ll end up together as well, but they don’t realize all of this until high school. Then they take that first leap of faith and start actually dating. Things are going great! But a couple years after dating they go away for the weekend and there is an accident. One that shakes Nell to her core because now Kyle is dead and she doesn’t really want to go on living anymore. She blames herself and her life starts to spiral after that. How can yougo on when the other half of your soul has been ripped from you? This book will pull out some raw emotions and I promise… you will cry! You’ll do that ugly snot dripping kind of cry because Jasinda Wilder seriously writes it so well thatyou feel like you are there with the character or that you are the character. I love how descriptive she is and she writes with her heart!